I'm turning 30.

I want to share some of my thoughts as I turn 30 tomorrow... It's hard to believe I'm turning 30 I really don't feel like a responsible adult with a mortgage. For years, I thought I would be pulling my hair out and having a mental breakdown. Strangely enough, I don't have any major feelings may be a couple of regrets but generally, I feel very blase.  Also, I feel no grand epiphany of clarity. Usually, on my birthday I feel a little down but I don't even feel any negativity.  

In contrast, I feel content with my life I'm not sure if that's bad or good. I don't feel the need to reach for stars or dream the dream it will come to reality. In comparison, I'm in the very privileged position, I have a loving partner, a few amazing friends in my life and  I own my house before turning 30.

 Personally, I also feel like I'm a better person than when I was 20 and grown and became more tolerant but less tolerant of people's crap. I don't think I'm quite the person who I would like to be but I do feel as though I'm on my way to becoming that person I want to be. I'm still finding me. 


Originally, I didn't plan much for my birthday,  albeit from holidaying Prague as a way of celebrating. I decided to have a small afternoon teas party with a couple of friends, my partner and Mam. I'm really not into big party's or celebrations I tend to prefer something a bit more sombre and quiet. 

Today, my mam (mother) took me fabric shopping and later we went for some cake and coffee in aid of for my birthday.  It was a quiet day, which I prefer.  

My cake